Hey, I'm in a relationship with this guy for the past five years. We've faced a lot on the go like we had a few breakups in between. It was a pretty good year we had together since our last patch up! Last month he proposed to me, we are getting married by the coming May.
Deep inside me, I feel insecure, because I intentionally adjusted a lot to be in this stage. Somewhere I love him very much!
Sometimes I hate even his presence and I feel to get rid of him!
At times, I fail to tolerate him. Even then I adjusted and acted like a fool just to keep this and to avoid another breakup.
I have an OCD past, so I'm afraid whether I'm obsessed with this relationship or I have ROCD! I don't know what I've been through, tensed, afraid, self-harming!
Apart from every issue, we love each other. I don't know but I'm worried not about getting married but about the success rate(Maybe it is because we had the freedom to leave when we had a relationship and marriage something more complex )!
To sort out our existing problems, I have been to a couple's counseller, after a detailed examination and talk session he referred me to an OCD therapist in that same clinic! I postponed the appointment as I felt it is bad to hide such things from my bf! But I don't dare to disclose everything to him too! I need a suggestion, do I need to tell about my OCD therapy treatment to him or not? I need a precise suggestion because more than him I need peace of mind now!